Awake here without you

It was the cool sound of night that came rushing back as i heard your voice at my side. The movement of water so softly filling my ears and waking me within. A swaying in my mind. An aching in my heart. A leap into the static existence just beyond my slumber. I reach out for you, you just a boy, just reaching out for me. And we walked out into the night together. Like walking hand in hand with heaven. All above us the stars grew bright. Their brilliance delicately falling on your skin and growing in your eyes. And they captured this performance in stillness. And, silently we marched backward off the bridge and fell quietly into our past.

The sun was only now setting and the sky was a bouquet of pinks and purples. Watching in the still. Slow movements without sound. And i saw you as an angel in my arms. Seems we were there forever in that moment. The sky never wilting and the waves never crashing. And we looked forward into each others eyes and found what we once left there.

Just then you dissapeared. And I found you there motionless beneath the water. A tide pushing you away, all the while i struggled to keep you there with me. My grip lost. A frantic search. An out stretched hand reaching for yours. I watched you slip away and begged the tide to take me with you. Breathless, I watched you sail outward, and found beauty in the sorrow i knew i would now find. So painful; so familiar. I struggled from the waters hold. Marching forward now instead of back, toward the bridge of my last hope. Pulling myself onward. Mourning love and all its gifts. Dropping flowers as i walked. Just then i dissapeared.

Falling hard from the night into the dim dream lights of day. And I awake to find my feet still wet surrounded in petals. And i was crying now. To wish I'd never wake is to live in a world that no longer exists. But to awake here without you is a pain I will never forget.